I'm secretly attracted to one of my dads best friends, he works with my dad so I get to see him and he's just so incredibly hot.

He was practically my Year 12 love. Who would ever think that I would have fallen in love with a guy who was considered a nobody by everyone else? We were never together, we were just seeing each other and he told me he loved me every night. Our connection was so intense.
Then I lost him & I don't remember exactly why. He refused to talk to me & always brushed me off then went out with a girl I didn't get along with.
It's been almost two years and I still have the biggest soft spot for him. I still get butterflies when I see him and I still think about him and what we could have been.
I miss him & I want him back in my life.

I hate it how people always tell me that I should laugh and smile more. Well how about this : I was abused as a child and the memory of it still burns and resonates in the deepest core of whatever constitutes my existence. My father should have been watching me when I was taken, but he, I later found out, decided to smoke a few cones and watch the footy. He blamed me for all his problems and he was never there when I needed him, even though he was responsible for what happened to me. The coward never put his family before his own selfish desires and I despise him utterly for it. Case in point -- when I was a teenager he took $5000 worth of severance pay (a bloody fortune on our meager budget) with him on a solo "business" trip to the Philippines, where we later found out he actually blew every fucking cent on drugs and bi-sex orgies, leaving us eating breadcrumb patties and stale bread. Then, six years ago, he tells my mum that he has HIV. By some utter miracle, my mother and little brother weren't infected. He moved to Sydney, where he currently chokes down crystal meth on a weekly, if not daily basis.
Apart from that, I haven't felt true happiness and joy for years upon years, my old friends screwed me over and its shattered my social skills and the only girl I have ever loved had sex with someone else while I was asleep in the next room, and that was a few hours after she made me tell her how much I loved her.

THAT'S why I don't smile and laugh it up and I'm sorry if the blank, downcast look that's on my face is disturbing your precious peace of mind.

The things I did to my ex bf: cheated on him, humiliated him, bossed him around, made him drop his job and friends for me all the time, got him pulled over for a dui because he was driving my crazy ass home, bailed him out of jail and drove him out of the state before his court date, had him live namelessly with me in hickvill, made him pay for everything, yelled at him, called him stupid worthless whitetrash, left him with nothing but a backpack, before I drove 3,000 miles away to live by the ocean in a cute house by myself. Then I proceeded to mess up his new relationship.

i feel so lonely
i have no woman
i have been alone for a long time.
i just wanna run away from here.
i am so ugly, that's the more reason why i am so lonely. Every girl dislike me.......i am desperated, i don't wanna die before having had sex with a women. And i don't wanna pay for it.

i wanna meet God for real

i really like this girl at school named amy i am 14 and at camp she sucked my finger

my dad has AIDS....i cant tell any of my friends or anyone...because i want to protect my family from the shame.

i dont feel ashamed of him. no matter what i still love him. i just dont want ppl to talk crap about him as my culture isnt very accpeting of AIDS.

I PRAY that he lives long and healthy.

i dont believe in the saying once a cheater always a cheater.........as everyone and every situation is different.

ppl have their own rules about cheating.
e.g. emotional physical, with holding info or only sex.

i have onced cheated when i was in my teens, now i have learned how to better deal with relationships. when it get toxic its better to leave, run or hide if you have to.......its better then ruining your image and self worth by turning to someone els for comfort when your most vulnerable...as cheating does not make you feel better or the problem go away.

i have disconnected myself from most of my friends, we all drifted apart as i find most of them would drop you in a sec for their BF. but when things turn sour they turn back to me for a sholder to cry on. friendship should be give take not take and give everything to their BF.
it was fun when it lasted but i rather not have friends like that as i dont feel like it was much of an equal friendship towards the end.

its my birthday today and my girlfriend took me out for indian food last night. it was very spicy and now it stings when i shit.

I have cysts all over my body.

I was seeing a 24 year old when I was 14, then I got with a navy boy and have loved the now 29 year old the whole time and never lost contact. 29 is a Gemini and I am a libran they say there the perfect astrological match.. I want to write songs about this bloke I am so madly in love and he plays games with my head and he is with this big sweater and she wants to have babies and he wants to have fun like me, and he has ex issues and oh man. I just want to tell him that we have everything in common hey. he knows it we have been kissin heaps while I have been down the coast and I am still with my partner of 4 years so yeah having an affair. So bad.. I just love this 29 y/o but he has massive issues and I feel like jumping off a building when he doesnt answer my texts.. I feel better now.

Every guy I date is either addicted to something or has a criminal record- or both. I dont know why. I am a beautiful college educated girl from a stable home.

I dont even know if I love him and he wants to marry me. How will I ever know? I don't love or trust anyone because of all the times I have been lied to in the past. I will never love again. Does that mean I should be single forever or marry him out of convienence?